a blanking mind

After a week, my head still so busy of thinking stuffs.
And now, it's already tuesday, but I am still feel so tired.
What if I can go away for a while, because I don't know what to do with my life.
Today, I was all alone with myself, I saw the movie, I ate the lunch, I read the book.
all these thing only did by myself, no one is there with me.

why there is no other person by my side?
why I am always alone?
what can I do with this situation?
Make a friend on the internet?Or just talking to myself?
I feel so lonely now, wish there could be someone for me,
Maybe it is not the time yet.

But everyone should have their own dream, right?
My dream is to make myself more happy,
is that difficult?

If there is an answer , I will be so thrill!!!

I wish there just someone said to me, "I am always by your side with you."
that's all, that's what I want, why it is so hard for me to have that?

If there is answer, tell me, please!!